When I first met you, I didn’t know how I would come to love you. Your jokes were less than funny and your sense of humor made no sense. You were a different type of guy. You aggravated my way of thinking, by challenging my way of thinking. Ideas and beliefs that I had been taught, since before I was born, were brought into question. I can still hear you asking me as I come into your room, just to greet you, “Kat! What is Life?” As soon as I am about to answer you say, “Ha! One day you’ll get it!”
You forced me to form my own beliefs on what God had shown me, and not have them based on what my parents had told me. It hurts when your brain grows, but you were always able to show and prove every new concept that you brought to my attention. Thank you for that. Over time I appreciated you and grew to love you! Even your feet. LOL!! You had wisdom like a Buddha…and his Belly! I miss rubbing it, “for luck”. You helped me to see that God created us all differently and that we all have different paths to take that will lead us to him. I am so happy that I was able to know you and spend my birthday with you last year. I think somewhere in the back of my mind, I knew….
Once again you have brought change to me; it is because of you, that I now have to face the impact of death every day. Usually when a loved one has gone on, I’ve never lived in the area so I didn’t have to deal with not having that person there, until YOU. Yes, it has been hard; but I tend to imagine you laughing at me, for crying over you. That’s how you were. Yes Lloyd, I hear you telling me that I don’t need to be sad because you are in a better place. I know that, but it still hurts. I know that I can believe in the hope of being able to see you again, but Paw-Paw, it still hurts.
Thank you for telling me that you were happy I was your daughter-in-law and that I was your favorite daughter-in-law. Although I was the only one, it still made me feel special!
Seeing you love your wife the way you did, helps me to understand why my husband loves me the way that he does. Thank you for showing me that fussing with your spouse over silly things like food or TV channels is a normal thing. Thank you for encouraging me to enjoy life and for always encouraging me to keep trusting in God and his promises. Although I miss seeing you on your side of the bed and hearing you talk about guns, space, and God, I am happy that you are finally Whole. I love you, I miss you, and your Boston Market dinners!
My life has forever been changed because of the wisdom you blessed me with. April 10, 2017 marked 1 year of having to live without hearing your laugh or seeing you clasp your hands to your mouth right before you said something that changed my thought process. In my mind I continue to see you do these things…. You will never be forgotten.
Your Favorite Daughter in Law (Katty-May)
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